(“Oh no, here she is again with her ramblings *sigh*” – yes, I know what you think! But it’s my blog, my own, MY PRECIOUS, just like my yoga mat :D)
Aaaanyway, I had an interesting conversation yesterday with a dear friend of mine, and she made an interesting comment that got me thinking. Again.
Here is how this part of the conversation went:
Me: I’m teaching my first yoga class next week.
DF (Dear Friend): wheeeee! so exciting!
Me: yeah, and the fact that I’m more excited than scared by it means it must be right, knowing the coward I usually am.
DF: well you might have been, but you’re not anymore. You still view yourself this way, that’s all.
Me: … …
She had a point.
I’ve been clinging to old patterns, still viewing myself as the 20-year old me, but that’s not who I am anymore. Which is not a bad thing if you ask me, except that my 20 years old are gone forever but hey, nothing I can do about it!
You know what I used to believe?
– I used to think I was that shy girl who would stand in her corner of the room in social gatherings and wish she could teleport home; I used to be that girl, but lately I found out that I can be a chatterbox if no one stops me, and that includes talking to people I just met. Oops.
– I used to think that safety and staying in my comfort zone would be just fine, why bother taking risks? Answer: because you die inside and your brain shuts down from boredom, that’s why. There is so much potential within a human being!
– I used to think I could’t run, turns out I can. I’m no marathon runner, but the thought of running half an hour doesn’t make me want to pull out my hair one by one, make a rope and hang myself anymore;
– The one you’ve been waiting for: I used to think that because I couldn’t touch my toes, then I couldn’t “do yoga”. You know where that one’s got me.
Take a look at yourself: what did you find out about yourself lately that you did not know / suspect? what is it you think about yourself that is really not true anymore?