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I am selfish. I know it, I’ve never concealed it. Not selfish in a “I’ll march on your head to get what I want” way, but selfish in a “charity begins at home” way.
See, I know myself pretty well, and I know what works for me. I know my strengths, I know my weaknesses, I know how to take care of myself and I know that by doing so, I’ll be in a better place to take care of others.
Knowing this doesn’t mean I’m wary or reluctant to change. Although change is not quite the right word here, let’s just say evolve, grow, and open. As I know myself pretty well, I can see myself the way I am, get perspective and see what’s unfolding. And something has been unfolding.
The latest debate in the yoga blogosphere (the yoga blogosphere… can’t believe I’m even typing these words! – oh, and I’m not going to go further into this debate, unless you’ve lived under a rock for the last few weeks you all know what I’m talking about) has, among other things, addressed the divide between individual and social (you should read this great post by Carol Horton over here).
Now bear with me while I’m trying to explain how I relate to this, it might seem a bit out there and farfetched but my brain sometimes has its own twisted ways to reach conclusions.
Since I started practicing yoga, I have evolved, grown, opened. I am still selfish, but I am more aware. I am kinder, less judgmental (although there is still some work to do there 😉 ), more tolerant. I am not yet a Care Bear though, don’t worry! I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone a lot this year only, and I guess I’m not done here. I am a disciplined type A personality with a sense of humour, which means yamas and niyamas are not so difficult to implement for me in everyday life. So far I’ve remained on a very personal plan, living yoga off the mat for me and those around me, being of service to basically myself.
For a few months though, I’ve been thinking about making it more “social”, being of service to others. I still don’t know which shape and form this will take, but I’ll make it happen. There are so many things to do, and to be honest I am a bit overwhelmed and discouraged sometimes when I see all there is we can do. I can help here in Brussels for the time we have left to live here, I can help on a European, or global, whatever, level.
Now I can’t imagine my practice not being connected to some kind of social / political action. I just can’t stay here and watch, and not care. This is my awakening, this is my own transformation and evolution, and it has been interesting, to say the least, to watch.
To bring some order back to this crazy brainstorming, Lovely Boyfriend and I* are going to the European Summit for Global Transformation in Amsterdam next month, hoping to be inspired and focused. We can’t wait!
And if we have to make, say, adjustments to the way we live now, like moving and / or not working full time anymore, then so be it. We’re kind of looking forward to find our purpose 🙂
Again, this is my own way, and I am absolutely not saying I am better than anyone, we are all different in our approach or life. But I’m curious people, what is your practice off the mat, in life, what’s your yoga?
* For the record, Lovely Boyfriend doesn’t practice yoga, on a mat anyway (apart from attempting crow pose when he sees me doing it, because he thinks he’s fun. Makes him my first student while I try to cue him so he doesn’t fall flat on his face and telling him it’s ok if he does), but he’s considering changing careers and being of service to others too. He’s a yogi in his own right!