Oh dear I’ve been a bad blogger, a bad bad blogger. Ok, “soon” is not a proper deadline, but in blogland it doesn’t mean 2 weeks either, baaad blogger!
Nothing wrong happened, do not worry my friends, I just hibernated in my cave during exam weeks and concentrated almost exclusively on trying to pass with flying colours (and trying not to forget about my day job). I don’t have the results yet, this is for next week, but it should be ok.
I have learned a lot in 4 months of being a student again. Of course, I am talking about the mere classes, but not only. This course has been an opportunity to practice yoga off the mat, in a twisted and unconscious way.
You see, one of my problems on the mat is letting go. You always here “let go”, which is fine by me but how the hell do I do that? Off the mat it’s all a matter of accepting the way things are and not try to force anything into what you think they should be. Working with other people on a presentation has been a big eye opener here: the perfectionist in me had to let go to let other people do their part, not only to give myself some rest but also to let them express themselves. I cringed sometimes at what they had done, or what they hadn’t done for that matter. But in the end, even if the result was not exactly the way I wanted it to be, it was the result of a real team work.
I also met people from all kinds of backgrounds, psychology, sea engineering, furniture design, marketing, legal (and this one guy was a count, the heir of one of the oldest noble families in Europe, what are the odds?), you name it. Each one of them taught me something, each one of them had knowledge I didn’t have, each one has been a true companion.
As I wrote in my last post, I also finally accepted that I am a ball of stress. I knew it, but I had tried to fight the symptoms, and getting stressed because I was stressed, definitely not a solution! So while I recognized these symptoms (argh abdominal pains), I knew what they were, and didn’t pretend they were not here. They were here, I breathed, told them I acknowledged them, and they finally went low profile. Good.
Oh, and very important also : I had fun 🙂